He said he was going to medical school after senior high, but the Cultural Revolution had forced him to be a zhiqing like all other students nationwide. No more school, he studied Traditional Chinese Medicine by himself. As a zhiqing in a barren area, it was hard to earn enough for food, so he followed a plasterer to Guangxi to do odd jobs. Whenever he had free time he would study by himself. I developed a profound respect for him. In such adversity, he still insisted on self-study and strove for progress. It was indeed rare. Alas! The evil power hurt so many people; our generation and the previous generation were ruined, the next generation was wasted. When I was in the fourth and fifth grades of Beijing Medical College, the college opened a course of Acupuncture and Traditional Chinese Medicine as a pilot for the (Western) Medical College nationwide. Later I continued to study it, and gradually realized the scientific rationale of TCM. During my wanderings in North Vietnam, I also applied TCM sometimes in practice. Combined with my background of Western Medicine, I felt that the contents and phenomena of Yin and Yang, exterior and interior, cold and heat, deficiency and excess in TCM were intrinsically related with the neuro-humoral (sympathetic, parasympathetic, endocrine hormones and other humoral mediators) regulations of modern medicine. TCM laid emphasis on the relationship between disease and the human body as well as the environment; it analyzed and integrated the relationship to make a diagnosis, and then formulated a comprehensive treatment program including clearing the condition of disease development. Western Medicine investigated the cause (such as bacteria and virus) and its damage; the treatment was to remove the cause and heal the injury. As an example: If cockroaches were found in the kitchen, TCM was to eliminate the environment for cockroach breeding, while Western Medicine was to kill the cockroaches. Each treatment was from a different point of view, but the target was the same—the patient. They could be effective separately but also could complement each other. TCM was really worth studying. I borrowed one book from Xiao Li and read it again and again. When he was sent away, I begged him to give the book to me in exchange for a used sweatshirt. Xiao Li declined at first because he had written many notes on the book, but later agreed. This book was very helpful because it prompted me to further explore combining Traditional Chinese Medicine with the theory of Western Medicine. A young man was sent to our cell. He was about 15, thin and a bit pale, but with a heroic spirit shining out from between his eyebrows. He did not speak much, but often sang alone in a low voice. Talking with him, I learned that his name was Wei Ying-yu and he was caught back when fleeing to Hong Kong. He was a Nanning person. I wondered why he went all the way to Guangdong to flee to Hong Kong. It turned out that he had a miserable story: In the 1950s, Wei’s parents were graduated from a university in that province. His father was assigned to a government literary and art department and his mother taught in a high school. His father was talented, often publishing articles in newspapers and magazines. In 1957 he was labeled a “rightist”; after three years of “labor education” he was sent back to his former unit under surveillance. His rightist label was removed in 1964. During the chaos of the Cultural Revolution, as a "label removed rightist" he was tortured to death by the Red Guards. Wei’s mother was driven to suicide by taking sleeping pills. Little Wei went to Xinhui, Guangdong province, hoping to live with an uncle who was a high school teacher there. His uncle was very sympathetic but could not accommodate him because Wei had no registered residence and grain ration there. Moreover, his uncle was under attack in the Cultural Revolution because his father had been a medical officer in the Kuomintang era. Wei understood that he could not stay long. By chance he met a man who had failed in fleeing to Hong Kong and was ready to try again. Wei went with him. Unfortunately they were caught in Bao'an County. As Wei sang alone in a low voice again, I asked him quietly, "What song are you singing? It sounds very good." Little Wei smiled wryly but did not answer me. Then I listened more carefully and roughly heard the lyrics: I had traveled all over the motherland, and had tasted a world of the bitterness; The book says that the childhood is wonderful, but my childhood is full of suffering. ......(Second, third paragraph re-singing) Ah, ah! The beautiful blue sky, Ah, ah, ah! The vast ocean, Look at the seagulls who are flying freely. It’s compendious and tragically moving. I remembered the second paragraph was about the experience of his suffering, the discrimination and humiliation; the third paragraph was the deep memory of his parents, and the resentment and frustration of his situation. Finally, with repressed and melodious tones, he sang of his desire for freedom by the metaphor of the blue sky, vast ocean and seagulls. Did he compose this song himself? If so, this pathetic young man was full of artistic promise! After leaving the Nanning Detention Center, I heard no more from young Wei. I really hoped that one day I might come across him on the streets of Los Angeles. From the heroic spirit between his eyebrows I would surely recognize him: "Hi, Little Wei, hope that you are well! Hope you won freedom finally!" The weather was growing hotter and the mosquitoes getting thicker. The detention center provided no mosquito net so they buzzed and bit me all night. I tried covering my head with a vest but that made night seem muggier and more intolerable. For a couple of consecutive nights I almost couldn't sleep at all and felt my head swimming and dizzy. I even lost an appetite for the two meals which sustained my life. I realized I soon would be exhausted if this situation continued. However, at this time I heard my name called and was told I was to be sent to Guiyang. Guiyang and Kunming Detention Centers Ten detainees were sent to Guiyang. We were paired in tandem with a rope around each one's neck and shoulders and then linked with a rope about one meter long. As before, we boarded a bus carrying regular travelers and sat in rear. This time I was okay, with no serious motion sickness and no vomiting. There were also one or two hundred detainees in Guiyang Detention Center, most of them odd-job migrants or wanderers. Unlike Nanning Detention Center, daily affairs were controlled by several jail aides and the administrative staff only supervised. The jail aids tyrannically abused their power and did as they pleased. After detainees arose each morning, we were lined up and run around the square. In other detention centers where I stayed this had been voluntary. But here it was compulsory, unless one was sick and got a jail aide’s approval. In addition, all detainees were forced to run numerous laps at a quick pace or otherwise be whipped. The jail aides invented a brutal punishment for detainees: Tying both elbows behind one’s back, and then pulling the rope tight to force the elbows closer and closer. The sufferer screamed with a pain that had penetrated his heart and lungs and fell down on the ground wailing. The jail aides enjoyed a laugh. I washed a vest and a pair of underpants and hung them on a drying line on the square. Picking them up in the afternoon I was surprised to find many gray dots on the clothes. "Lice!" I almost cried out. It turned out that someone else had hung a pair of underpants with a lot of lice next to mine. The lice crawled along the wire. Upset, I rinsed my garments thoroughly under the tap. Of all the detention centers where I stayed during those years, Guiyang was the messiest and dirtiest, and one of two where the jail aides were most rude and unreasonable. One reason may have been its isolation from the outside community; another reason was that most detainees here were from the bottom level of the society and were often bullied. This was unlike Guangdong which was relatively open, where the majority of detainees were those fleeing to Hong Kong and who came from all levels of society. One fellow detainee told me about instances of butchering innocents in Guiyang at the peak of the Cultural Revolution. It gave 6 me a big shock: The Red Guards had escorted a group of the "cow demons and snake spirits" to the wilderness and ordered them to form a circle. After reading the “Highest Directives”, they gave a hoe or shovel to each to dig a large pit. After taking back the tools, the Red Guards gave everyone a single shot, kicked them into the pit and buried them, regardless of whether they were dead or alive. My fellow detainee continued: As the two factions fought each other violently, the general commander of one faction was shot and killed. His followers made a stainless steel coffin, selected two attractive female students from among captives of the opposite faction, shot them to death, and then dragged the corpses over to serve as padding for the coffin. Finally, a spectacular funeral was held for their commander. I understood that the bloody cruelty had reached a frenzied crescendo. However, I also knew that the tragedy had extended far beyond Guiyang! One day at Guiyang I noticed a student-like detainee about 20 years old with both hands gone. He held the bowl with his two forearm stumps and protruded his mouth to eat. To urinate or defecate he needed someone to help. A fellow detainee told me that this young man’s father had left college to join the KMT army early in the War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression. He was a hero in fighting the Japanese and was promoted to company commander. Later he was wounded and demobilized with a bullet still lodged in his body. After Communist “liberation”, the young man’s father was executed for the “crime” of being a former Kuomintang officer. In the Cultural Revolution, his mother committed suicide after repeated denouncement and torture. The young man was tied up with both hands behind his back and left overnight by the Red Guards. Next day, with blackened hands, he was sent to the hospital for amputation. Later he wandered the streets and became the head of a small gang of beggars. The fellow detainee told me: "In the detention center this young man has his underlings. You see, there is always someone to help him with the meal, and help him to loosen the belt to pee or s--t.” I wondered how the son of a hero of the War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression whose family suffered such injustice could not help but be indignant at being relegated to such a low place. After staying in Guiyang for many days, ten of us were 7 transferred to Kunming. Only two or three were tied, but not me. We boarded a slow night train with not enough seats, so many sat in the aisle. I sat near the door which I noticed the supervisor had neglected to lock. To escape I needed only wait until the train accelerated downhill, then open the door and jump. But I did not want to do that. When we arrived at the terminal and I advised the supervisors the door was not locked, they were taken aback. Next morning we arrived in Kunming, filed out of the train station and got on a detention center truck. Hadn’t seen you for a long time, Kunming! Nine years ago I fled from here back to Guangzhou; tried several times to flee to Hong Kong but failed; and finally was forced to escape to North Vietnam. After experiencing 101 hardships and dangers, I still could not escape “Buddha's palm” in the end. I really had mixed feelings and felt infinite melancholy. Ahead I might expect more suffering and humiliation. Yet I also saw the distant glimmer of a vague hope. We rode through the urban district on familiar streets, but more deserted than before. The shops were dilapidated and gloomy. Kunming Detention Center was in the western suburb Huangtupo, not far from the Medical College. Conditions were similar to those of Guiyang. The jail aides were also domineering. Every morning the detainees were forced to line up and run several laps, not allowed to be slow, and not allowed to drop out. After several months of imprisonment and abuse, my physical strength had grown very weak. Once I ran only two laps and then fell to the ground. A jail aide came and kicked me. I stood up dazedly and dragged myself with faltering footsteps back to the cell. Among the detainees was a Cantonese with the surname Ho, who was in his 30s, of medium build, thin and strong. He had been a performer in an acrobatic troupe, was of upright character and liked defending against injustice. In the Cultural Revolution, Ho was persecuted and fired from his job. To support himself he had a recipe for injuries, preparing plasters and setting up stalls to sell them everywhere. But he was detained by market management personnel and sent to the detention center. Ho asked my advice about his future plans: He realized he might be caught again for selling plasters, and both the plasters and his money would be confiscated. So that was not the way to go. He was considering purchase of a boat, drifting along the river to fish and 8 changing the place every day to avoid checking of his registered residence. He asked if I thought this would work. I had never heard of such a scheme and felt it hard to imagine, but was sad for his plight. After some thought, I realized the plan would not work. Seeing him drifting along the river, the river management department would intercept; selling fish ashore, the market management personnel would investigate. Alas, Communist control was far more than nets above and snares below, but was heavy iron bastions! Once a teenager was bullied by a big guy and Ho challenged him. The big guy, seeing that Ho was small and thin, gave him a push. To the big guy’s surprise, Ho pushed back; the bully staggered and fell on the threshold and split open his shoulder. The jail aide then tied both of Ho’s elbows tightly behind his back. Anyone else suffering such torture would have screamed in tears. But Ho was an acrobat, so that was not much for him. Then a supervisor came in to resolve the situation and loosened him. The terminal detention center usually sent the detainees on quickly, but I had waited for more than a month and still heard nothing. This caused me to become anxious. Finally, one day I was called to the reception room and found two men from the Medical College there. One was Director of Personnel Yang Changwang, the other I didn't recognize at first. Yang introduced him: "Well, he is Wang Zhanyuan (Director of General Affairs)." "Oh, got fat," I reflected on their appearance. Both of them also were growing some white hairs on their temples. I wondered, after passing through the difficult vicissitudes of life, what would I look like to them? I believed they should have no ill feeling for me because, although I was not sociable, I had never caused trouble. They might even have retained respect for my professional knowledge. For example, once the Pharmacological Department had disposed of a batch of post-experimental rabbits which later were sold by the General Affairs Section. In those years meat was in short supply and everyone wanted them.